I feel like it’s been forever since my last post. It also feels like forever since I’ve had a moment to myself.
November came and went, the following is an abbreviated version of last months happenings: First came my daughter’s annual costume (birthday) party, then prepping my hubbie for his 2 1/2 week trip out of the country, next it was Thanksgiving, then remotely planning my brothers 30th birthday party and today I said goodbye to my last house guest.
Towards the end of this week, I began clamoring for my “closet” time. I felt like I should have spent more time alone with God, somehow I wanted to feel guilty for all the time I spent with others, hosting, laughing, cleaning, dancing, playing games, planning, cooking, staying up late and sleeping in. Although I didn’t feel wrong in my heart, my mind wanted to hold me captive.
This past week was the most fun, my girlfriend that I grew up with came to stay with me. She usually comes for a week when my husband is out of town and it’s such a blessing because we have such a great time and it takes my mind off the fact that my best friend is 5,048.2 miles away.
As soon as she left, I spend a few moments alone in the quiet wondering if I had done enough. I thought, Gosh we had so much fun but was God able to use me? Usually when she comes we have these 4 hour deep, tear jerking, life changing conversations and we didn’t have that this time. Had I failed my friend? Especially at a time where she’s going through a difficult transition? Should I have skipped the nightly dance routines in my living room or the $57 sushi “snack” for two that we mistakenly ordered from a menu with no prices?
Oh my goodness, I’ve got to call her now and say something profound!
In the midst of my thoughts I caught a vision of God chuckling at me, but I paid no attention to it and continued to ask Him to give me the right words to say to my friend. I spent some time reading the Word and then some time in prayer. Afterwards, I called my friend as she was driving back home. My time alone with the Lord gave me nothing “profound” to say, so when she answered the phone I began with an apology. “Hey sis, I’m sorry that I didn’t have much to share with you this week, I asked the Lord to give me the words of encouragement and wisdom to share with you on your journey home, but I got nothing.”
The opposite side of the phone produced a hearty chuckle, one that I’m sure was my friend and God in unison. She said what are you talking about? I was so encouraged by “this” and “that”…….she began reflecting on the small things I said in passing, the ways that I served her, the joy that she experienced through our silly adventures. God had given her so much through us just spending time together. My heart rejoiced. We talked a little longer and I shared what her presence had done for me as well.
We hung up the phone, THEN God decides he wants to speak to me (classic God timing)
He said, relationships are very important. You must never forget that you have an amazing relationship with Me, so you can have an amazing relationship with others.
He was absolutely right. Ummm, I guess I didn’t need to say that. But He showed me, to everything there is a season. Sometimes we may be have tons of uninterrupted alone time with the Lord and other times, it is time for us to take what we’ve gained from our private time with Him and let it ooze out onto everyone else.
Hebrews 10:24-25 And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching.